Yay, I've been 'clean' for a week! :) Longest I've gone in a while, it may not seem like much but that's countless battles of willpower for me.
For those who don't know, being 'clean' means- in this case- that I haven't self-harmed. It's not the greatest of terms; it implies that self-harm is 'unclean', which isn't the right attitude. However, it's become widely used.
My arms are slightly covered in scars, though I don't know if other people notice as much as I do. I've been using Bio-Oil to help get rid of the scarring. However, I'm not sure I want it to go completely. I don't like people asking about it, but for me it's a personal reminder of the things I've overcome. The operative word there is overcome; things that threatened to defeat me, but which- for now, at any rate- I am in control of. A fairly powerful and encouraging message. I've been reading a book recently which says something about scars being beautiful, just because they represent how far you've come. I couldn't agree more.
Here's hoping for countless more weeks of being 'clean'.