It's Easter Sunday, and I am sat in my favourite place. It's deserted aside from me, and the weather is gorgeous- warm and sunny, but with a bit of a breeze. It's the perfect Spring day, and I am in the perfect Spring mood.
Last year I hated Easter. I dislike celebrating things blindly, and that's what I was doing. Easter had nothing in it for me- but I still had to pretend like it did. This year is different. I'm not an Easter fanatic, I would still somewhat rather it wasn't happening, bur there has been some reconciliation too.
My faith has changed a little over the last year. Not completely, and I still don't feel comfortable talking about it, but there has been some shift, I think, and that's helped how I feel today.
However, the biggest 'factor' is that I have found something to link Easter to. Christmas, for me, is about love, hope, gratitude... Well, right now I am searching for a new beginning. I want chicks and rabbits, because I want to find yet more evidence of lift going on. I want to start again, to start afresh, not the person I was, but with her still firmly at my core. That's what Easter is, to me, today. It's about forgiveness, second chances and being able to begin again.
Happy Easter :)