Argh, I've got to go to land training and I really really don't want to :( Just can't face being all chatty and happy and jokey when all I actually want to do is curl up in bed somewhere, listen to music and pretend nothing exists. I know I'll probably be okay once I get there but until then I'll just feel crap. Likewise- I'm meant to be going prom dress shopping tomorrow with my friend, my cousin and my cousin's friend (I'm the only one at the age of needing a dress) and I don't want to :( Why are there so many people and why can't I just take to hiding in my room? We'd all be happier that way.
Ugh I'm feeling so crap, why me, why do I have to feel like this? And the person I emailed earlier this week still hasn't replied or done/said anything, she's probably just busy but I've been fairly desperate and now I just feel as if maybe everyone's completely given up on me and maybe they have and maybe I should too :(