Ugh. Feeling so crap this evening :( I've had an up-and-down day- definitely had some really good parts, but whenever I had a moment to think I ended up going back down again. Earlier I think I reached one of my lowest points so far, thankfully things are slightly better now, but not much and I don't know how long it'll last.
I'm meant to be emailing my music teacher, only I don't know what to say. Why's it so hard to ask for help!? I know I need to, I just can't ever work out how to say it. Plus, right now, I don't know what's actually going to make me feel better for a sustained period of time. I just want to feel better, whatever that is- not dangerously low, not scarily high. I want to stop feeling as if I'm annoying everyone, and that I'm always wrong. I just want to curl up in a little ball and pretend I'm tiny again.
I was so happy in Gambia, why can't I go back? :(