Recital.

So so so the A level recital is on Thursday. In English: I have to play the piano. In front of people. This is... mega. And awful. I already feel like I'm going to throw up, so goodness knows how I'll be on Thursday. I'm trying to use positive coping strategies (clean for over a month, and I want to keep it this way), but I'm not going to lie, it is hard. I can't wait till after Thursday.